What she is up to?

Soft and sweet to others
Hard and sour to me..
Calls always abrupt and business like..
To them,
Elongated words so soothing to ears and to heart..
Why?
She said, they are entertaining her like she should..
Being pampered
Being cajoled
Being flattered
EXAMPLE:
      b. Entertain them, please!

      J. eh, you 'sound' different

          these are the male group from the neighbourhood coming from house to house to recite religious

          songs and prayers in conjunction with Hari Raya. I had to prepare some refreshments.Thats all.

If it was me, no matter how different I sound, she wont notice
Love lost along the highway of cyber...

I feel hurt
How long am I going to suffer?
Am I that bad?
So sourish?
So selfish?

If she is in love with others,
Be it
If she is after the sweetness of forbidden pleasures
Be it
If by cheating me makes her proud
May Allah shows her the way to forgiveness
For I am tired of fighting the losing battle..
Semoga Allah memaafkan mu dan aku.

ps: I dare to write these, cos nobody care to read...